I'm in Rehab...again TW: Self Harm/Suicide

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TW: Self Harm/Suicide

Hey guys it's Elektra,
This morning I checked myself back into a rehabilitation facility. It is called The Living Room in Blount County TN. I've still been cutting every night that I've been out of the hospital. Sometimes I cut so deep that I am afraid I'll black out and bleed out. I want to stop harming myself. I don't want to die. I want to get better and stop feeling so empty and lonely. I've got a lot of work to do. I am sorry for the disappointment. I feel like I am failing every single one of you by being here. Almost as if I've given up. I'm not going to give up until I get better and I'm able to continue helping others and making my friends happy. Thank you all for your support and prayers during this time. I should only be here until next Saturday or Sunday. I love you all. I will try to blog my stay this time so people can see what it is like in a facility like this. Please don't give up on me and help me to not give up on myself. 

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